by Carolyn on March 15, 2010
Confession time. I have to admit, I’m kind of disappointed in myself. When I started this blog, one of the first issues I wrote about was my lack of authenticity. How I had lost myself in an attempt to always be fulfilling the needs and expectations of others. Only showing the parts of me that [...]
by Carolyn on February 15, 2010
It feels eerily the same as when I was ten. Waiting for a phone call that’s not coming. Wondering what I did wrong. Thinking that maybe the last time we talked I wasn’t nice enough, didn’t seem interested enough in his life, or that maybe somehow I upset him. That internal dialogue is whispering through [...]
by Carolyn on November 14, 2009
I can feel it coming. Can you? My self destruction is looming in the corner. Taunting me. Ready to take over at my slightest concession. This is what I do. It’s what I’ve done. It’s who I’ve been. I’ll tell you a story. There once was a girl who had her whole future laid in [...]
by Carolyn on August 27, 2009
As a child of divorce I’ve lived my life with one enormous fear. The fear of not being wanted. It still haunts me. I’ve seen it haunt others. Like a monkey on our backs that lays dormant for a while but wakes up at the slightest hint of confirmation. I wish it wasn’t so. I [...]
by Carolyn on July 28, 2009
Most of us don’t seek out conflict. Although there are a few who seem to revel in it’s flurry and rush, the majority desire only peace. But being fallibly human and wielding our free will; conflict is undoubtedly inevitable. We hurt each other’s feelings. We make each other angry. And we certainly don’t always agree. [...]
by Carolyn on June 25, 2009
I’m fine, thanks. Don’t worry about me. I’m good… really. We’ve all said them. Those words that tell others that we are fine and thereby don’t need their sympathy, support, care or concern. Even when sometimes we do. Why is that? A fear of vulnerability? A need to always appear strong? Or maybe a sense [...]