by Carolyn on February 15, 2010
It feels eerily the same as when I was ten.
Waiting for a phone call that’s not coming. Wondering what I did wrong. Thinking that maybe the last time we talked I wasn’t nice enough, didn’t seem interested enough in his life, or that maybe somehow I upset him. That internal dialogue is whispering through my [...]
by Carolyn on February 1, 2010
I know, I know. Here we go again. This is something I’ve been trying to get off the ground for as long as this website has been around. It’s just such a big part of my vision for this space, I can’t let it go. And I want so very much for it to be [...]
by Carolyn on January 11, 2010
I find myself dreading and avoiding that age old, over asked question this January.
“What’s your New Year’s resolution?”
I usually have one. In years past, I’ve answered with one of the typical and over used options like working out, losing weight, eating right and being organized. But this year I can’t even keep up the pretense [...]
by Carolyn on November 20, 2009
Have you ever agreed with someone on a topic only to realize later, after closer consideration that you didn’t agree at all, and you wish wish wish you could go back in time and change your answer?
Just me? Oh.
As a guest on the online radio show Coparenting Matters, one of the co-hosts Talibah asked me [...]
by Carolyn on November 14, 2009
I can feel it coming. Can you?
My self destruction is looming in the corner. Taunting me. Ready to take over at my slightest concession. This is what I do. It’s what I’ve done. It’s who I’ve been.
I’ll tell you a story.
There once was a girl who had her whole future laid in front of her. [...]
by Carolyn on October 18, 2009
I always wanted a full blooded sibling.
For a couple of reasons.
First, I always wished for someone to share the burden of being the last remaining relic of my parent’s marriage. It’s hard feeling like an anchor around your parent’s ankles; tethering them to one another when they so very much wanted to be severed. I’ve [...]
by Carolyn on October 9, 2009
One year ago today, I went nervously to a hospital knowing that day I’d meet my daughter.
One year ago today, I relied on family to care for my precious son, not knowing how long we’d be apart.
One year ago today, I gave up all control and put my trust in doctors and nurses.
One year ago [...]