One year ago today?

by Carolyn on October 9, 2009

My husband, my coach, my love

My husband, my coach, my love

One year ago today, I went nervously to a hospital knowing that day I’d meet my daughter.

One year ago today, I relied on family to care for my precious son, not knowing how long we’d be apart.

One year ago today, I gave up all control and put my trust in doctors and nurses.

One year ago today, I ate popsicles and told myself they were filling when I was starving.

One year ago today, I felt my contractions induced and cheered the absence of back labor.

One year ago today, I tangibly felt the depth and strength of my husbands love, both for me and for our family.

One year ago today, I shared this sacred event not with family, but with a cherished friend.

One year ago today, divorce and family dynamics were the farthest thing from my mind.

One year ago today, I was strong yet light, and joked right up to delivery.

One year ago today, I held my breath waiting for the sound of a cry.

One year ago today, I felt a rush of love while gazing at slate eyes and perfect lips.

One year ago today, I reveled in the celebration of a birth.

One year ago today, I whispered to words like ‘beautiful’, ‘sweet’ and ‘precious’ while feeling they were entirely inadequate.

One year ago today, I felt both confidence and fear, knowing what lay ahead.

One year ago today, I realized what it meant to hold my daughter.

One year ago today….I’m sorry I keep writing that, but it feels more like yesterday to me.

Steve handing me Claire for the first time

Steve handing me Claire for the first time

Pure. Reckless. Love.

Pure. Reckless. Love.

Snuggling

Snuggling

The sappiness ends tomorrow.  I promise.

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1 Jodi October 9, 2009 at 12:43 am

She’s the cutest baby & so special!!

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2 Carolyn October 9, 2009 at 8:55 am

Thanks Jod. She loves you too!

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3 Missy October 9, 2009 at 4:27 am

What a sweet post.
Happy Birthday to your baby girl!
.-= Missy´s last blog ..A Friends of Gevalia Offer Awaits You =-.

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4 Carolyn October 9, 2009 at 8:56 am

Thanks Missy!

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5 Jayne October 9, 2009 at 4:36 am

Oh not sappy at all. The birth of a child is so profound that anyone who has been through it knows exactly how you feel. What a sweet little chickadee she is. :)

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6 Carolyn October 9, 2009 at 8:56 am

Thanks Jayne!

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7 Tammy October 9, 2009 at 7:55 am

I think you’re entitled to a little sappiness! Beautifully written – brought back so many memories of ‘that day’ with each of my own little girls, so thank you for that.
.-= Tammy´s last blog ..Painted Skies and Pie =-.

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8 Carolyn October 9, 2009 at 8:58 am

I’m glad you liked it, Tammy.

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9 Tammy October 9, 2009 at 9:25 am

Great post and not sappy at all! Love the pics!(heehee)

Thank you so much for sharing!

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10 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:13 pm

We were so lucky and are still thankful to you for taking them. Claire’s birthday will be something we’ll always share. :)

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11 Mary-Jane October 9, 2009 at 9:32 am

The sappiness should never end!
.-= Mary-Jane´s last blog ..Holy Bozo =-.

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12 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:14 pm

Thanks Mary-Jane. I wish I could comment on your blog. Darn Discus!

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13 Theta Mom October 9, 2009 at 1:07 pm

LOVE this post! So sweet, heartfelt and special. Beautiful pictures. I know EXACTLY how you feel. ;)
.-= Theta Mom´s last blog ..Time Out for Theta Mom Thursday =-.

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14 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:14 pm

Thanks, Heather. It goes so fast….

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15 Eyes Wide Open October 9, 2009 at 2:26 pm

HOW DOES YOUR HAIR LOOK SO GOOD AFTER GIVING BIRTH?!!! ;)
Lovely post, and lovely gals :)
.-= Eyes Wide Open´s last blog ..Book Review: Forgive for Good by Dr. Fred Luskin =-.

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16 Tammy October 10, 2009 at 10:31 am

She smiled through the pushing and didn’t smudge any of her makeup!

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17 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:15 pm

LOL! I’ve been asked that before. I can only say that my daughter darn near delivered herself. Such a good girl!

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18 Holly Ann October 9, 2009 at 10:35 pm

one year ago, you looked awesome just having a baby…

Happy Birthday Claire! and Mommy!

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19 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:16 pm

Thanks, Holly. I can’t believe she’s one!

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20 Blond Duck October 10, 2009 at 7:24 am

I think it’s lovely. Happy birthday to your little one!

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21 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:16 pm

Thanks!

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22 Betsy October 10, 2009 at 11:25 am

Awwwww…

Beautiful.

Happy Birthday Mama and Baby.
.-= Betsy´s last blog ..I’m So Pregnant =-.

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23 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:24 pm

Thanks, Betsy. I’m looking forward to a post soon announcing a new one for you too!

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24 Urchin October 10, 2009 at 6:15 pm

Happy Birthday to your lovely girl-child. What a wonderful present! What a wonderful list!

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25 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:24 pm

Thanks, Urchin. So nice of you to poke your head in. Hope you are well!

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26 Yaya October 11, 2009 at 10:04 am

Beautiful!
.-= Yaya´s last blog ..Orange You Glad It’s Saturday?! =-.

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27 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:25 pm

Thanks Yaya!

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28 love lives in the kitchen October 12, 2009 at 3:24 am

hello from sits! your blog is very interesting and your pics are beautiful :)
wish you a great day!
justyna

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29 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:27 pm

Thanks for stopping by Justyna!

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30 BethP October 12, 2009 at 8:34 am

What a great post. Happy Birthday to your little girl. One year from now you’ll be thinking about today – I hope you have a most wonderful day to reminisce about!
.-= BethP ´s last blog ..Nothing but blue skies do I see… =-.

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31 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:28 pm

Oh yes, there will be much reminiscing in the future!

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32 Angelia Sims October 12, 2009 at 10:51 pm

Beautiful dedication to the memory of your daughters birth. A very cherished time. What miracles they are!
.-= Angelia Sims´s last blog ..Sunday Healthy Reflection =-.

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33 hayley October 13, 2009 at 12:27 pm

Making me cry reading this! Happy birthday to your daughter!
.-= hayley´s last blog ..A Conversation About Star Wars =-.

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34 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:34 pm

Thanks Hayley!

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35 steve October 13, 2009 at 8:49 pm

thanks, for the most beautiful daughter! even if she still keeps us up all night and cuts in on our own private time!! hopefully that will end soon. love steve !!!!

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36 Carolyn October 13, 2009 at 10:35 pm

Do the mantra with me:

“this too will pass. this too will pass. this too will pass.”

In a few years, we’ll remember these nights and laugh about it. Maybe. ;)

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