In search of me – Day 4

by Carolyn on July 16, 2009

tree pose

tree pose

Okay, back to work folks:

Do you have a passion?  If so, what is it?  If not, do you wish you did and what do you think it could be?

I have one stipulation for this question.  Don’t include your loved ones as passions.  Therefore children, husbands, boyfriends, parents and anyone else are all excluded.  It’s a given that each of us are passionate about our families.  But I want this to be something that you do only for you, not anybody else.

Share

{ 1 trackback }

Disallowing My Self Destruction — The Grown Up Child
November 15, 2009 at 12:07 am

{ 12 comments… read them below or add one }

1 Frank July 16, 2009 at 9:34 am

As absurd as this sounds…. superheroes. I grew up running around with a towel tied around my neck, reading comic books and watching Batman re-runs on Channel 5 five days a week. I just never outgrew it. I’m so glad they’re making such great superhero films these days. It’s like a dream come true. :)

Reply

2 Urchin July 16, 2009 at 11:24 pm

I’m right there with you! Lucky me, I found a show called Who Wants To Be A Superhero, and auditioned for the second season, making a vast number of new friends/acquaintances and starting a not-for-profit organization with them. Skiffytown. Gotta love it.

Reply

3 Tammy July 16, 2009 at 12:20 pm

I love to read. It can be pretty much anything. I will even admitt I loved the twilight series and am now enjoying a new series. I am also looking forward to reading the true blood series. It is something I do just for me. And where I am at in my life(no regrets though), I need “me time”.

Reply

4 Urchin July 16, 2009 at 11:26 pm

ooh I need a new good book series. After Potter ended the way it did (-twitch, twitch-) I haven’t found a new series to really get me excited. There’s one… but more books haven’t been published yet. He knows who he is. Or he better. So if you have any suggestions?…

Reply

5 Maryann July 16, 2009 at 4:59 pm

I really enjoy Baking/Cooking but I don’t know if I would enjoy it as much if I didn’t have someone to share it with. I don’t think I have something that I am really passionate about that is just for me. I like to read but don’t love it. Same goes for scrapbooking, gardening and most other hobbies I have tried. I guess my passion is bringing Joy and happiness to others. I wish it would be Dancing. I like watching TV shows that have something to do with Dancing and envy the people that are on the shows. I have 2 left feet so instead of being a Dancer, I will settle for baking Cakes.

Reply

6 Tammy July 16, 2009 at 9:19 pm

I wish I could dance as well. My husband and I started taking ballroom dancing lessons and we loved it. Now with three kids it is harder to find a sitter. I want to do it again, we laughed the whole time b/c I was always trying to lead(control freak). You should try it, two left feet or not. It is a lot of fun!

Reply

7 Urchin July 16, 2009 at 11:26 pm

mm cookies.

Reply

8 Carolyn July 16, 2009 at 8:31 pm

Unfortunately, I think I’m going to answer ‘no’ here. I have been passionate about lots of things but I don’t think I would consider them my passions. At one time, I was very passionate about doing yoga. At another, I was passionate about kickboxing. I am passionate about reading, while I’m reading a good book. But I am not driven to do these things. Two of them I don’t even practice anymore.

When I think of my passion, I think of something I could not live without doing. Something that is defining to my life. I really struggled today thinking that maybe writing or this blog is my passion. But although I’m passionate about it now, I don’t know yet if it will become something I could not separate from my life. Maybe it will. It’s all so new.

If I did have a passion (and I really wish I did), I would hope for it to be in the fine arts. Either writing, playing an instrument, dance (but I really kind of missed the boat here), or singing (trust me, not happening) would be what I could see my life moulding around. I still really want to learn the violin. I should stop talking about it and just do it already.

But there are two other things I have been passionate about that I still dream of doing from time to time. The first is teaching. I really miss it. I don’t have any desire to teach children or teenagers but I love lecturing. I could lecture every day and be happy. No, really. I’m serious. The second is community work. I initiated a community program for the homeless and those at risk of homelessness and I absolutely loved every minute of it. Once my children are older I could see this emerging as my passion.

So I guess I’ll have to just see. I’m determined to have one. I just wonder what it will turn out to be. Writing? Playing? Lecturing? Community work? I’m looking forward to finding out.

Reply

9 Tammy July 16, 2009 at 9:16 pm

I hear you play a mean guitar hero. lol Maybe try rock band next time. You sing play guitar and play the drums!

Reply

10 Urchin July 16, 2009 at 11:28 pm

Keep trying. Pick up new talents. Water your talent tree (as a friend of mine would say. She told me that once, I was in a bad place and told her we were in a drought. )

I hope you find your passion.

Reply

11 Carolyn July 17, 2009 at 9:32 am

“Water your talent tree” That’s great! And your response was pretty good too :)

Reply

12 Urchin July 16, 2009 at 11:35 pm

There’s nothing really I can live without, except for the basics. Even my beloved Canucks. I was existing just fine (HA!) in life before I was even introduced to the noble art and sport of hockey.

I can live without my comic books, my theatre, the plays and scripts I cleave to. I enjoy a great many things, know more about the roasting and brewing of coffee than I think a lot of people have a right to know. I have plans to open a coffee and tea house eventually, but I can live without it.

I too want a passion. Something that drives me forward. Something beyond my desire to survive. To live. If only to prove to people I can. That I won’t let certain events take precedence over my life. Even though, in reality, they have in so many ways.

I want to keep surviving. Better yet, LIVING. truly living. Doing all the things I want to try, laughing at all the things that make me laugh. I want to be loved, hugged, told I’m pretty. I need to know that I’ve done something to change someone’s life for the better. I don’t want to become a leech on society. A leech on the people around me. And I’m terrified of being useless.

So if a passion can be NOT being something. Then that’s it. I don’t want to be a victim. And I’m working on that. Truly working on it.

Reply

Leave a Comment

CommentLuv badge

Previous post:

Next post: