by Carolyn on June 30, 2009


My Muse

My friend Frank Fradella produces a weekly podcast called LINGO.  It is a collection of hand picked world pop music with the premise behind it being that music in and of itself transcends language and culture.  And I think he’s right.  I’m not a big listener of world music, but I’ve really enjoyed listening to the show.  Even when I don’t understand a word being sung.

I think that’s because music establishes a truly emotional connection with each of us.  And that connection makes our music preferences a very personal thing.  When someone asks you ‘what kind of music do you like?’ they are in a way asking ‘who are you?’.  And it can be difficult to answer honestly.  If you are like me, you are more than happy to throw out a genre or two.  Maybe offer a band that you know is generally accepted enough to name.  But how often do you tell them about the song that you have been obsessing over lately?  You know, the one that you’ve listened to over and over.  The one that you’ve turned the volume up as loud as your ears could stand and closed your eyes to find yourself in a different place and time.  No. Exposing those raw emotional connections leaves you vulnerable.  And being vulnerable is difficult.  For me.

But in the name of exposing myself and my emotional connections, I’m going to share some of my anthems today.

I think we all have a personal anthem.  A song that really expresses us.  One that fits like a second skin.  And being that this site is a new and relatively large part of my life now, I have found I’ve got a new set of anthems wholly related to it.  Strangely enough, they are all from one band, very aptly named Muse (wherein the pun is unintended but funny just the same).  Now trust me, I am not trying to influence your music taste in any way.  This is about me and I only included the songs for you to be able make the association.

Supermassive Black Hole – My personal anthem these days and the title of track says it all.  I often feel like a gaping hole.  But stylistically the song reflects me well.  The heavy guitar riffs, the alternative edge, everything about it.  It’s a reminder of what I don’t want to be and keeps bringing me back to this place striving for change.  I particularly love the line “You’re the queen of the superficial, how long before you tell the truth”.  I’m trying to tell the truth now.

Knights of Cydonia – This is my battle cry.  When I’m considering writing about a topic but am shying away out of fear, thinking someone might be offended or upset by my point of view; I hum this song.  It helps me find the strength to move forward.  It’s funny, because I don’t even like westerns.

Starlight- This is my serenade.  When I’m finding that I need to go deeper or write from a truer place, I sing this to myself.  Goofy, I know.  But it works.  My inner self responds well to this serenade.  I love the reference to ‘black holes and revelations’.  Was this song written for me?

Feeling Good – I hear this in my head when I’m going to encounter people who may have come here and read all I’ve written but haven’t mentioned it to me yet.  It can be daunting when you don’t know someone’s reaction.  When they haven’t commented either here or to me.  It can feel like an elephant in the room.  Except the elephant isn’t just in the room, it’s perched on my back waving it’s arms and making faces.  It can be hard walking in to a room that way, all weighted down with an elephant.  This song helps me walk tall.

Okay, those are mine.  What are yours?  Are you brave enough to tell?


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1 Frank June 30, 2009 at 2:24 pm

I’m brave enough. Listen to LINGO this Sunday and I’ll tell you mine. :)


2 Carolyn June 30, 2009 at 10:08 pm

Looking forward to it. :)


3 Urchin June 30, 2009 at 8:24 pm

Okay first:
We apparently have very similar tastes in music. Muse is one of my all time favorite groups. Just love their sound!

Now then… to bare myself. Or a part of myself.

I hope that works…


4 Urchin June 30, 2009 at 8:34 pm

aw dang. No playlists then. Alright. A list and mild explanation. Individual songs do mean things to me, I won’t go into what each song I have listed means exactly, but it’s basically part of my “feel better” list.

Mitternact – E Nomine
Sleep – My Chemical Romance
Que Sera Sera – Pink Martini’s version
Inside Out – Eve 6
Who Needs Sleep? – Barenaked Ladies
Life For Rent – Dido
The Beauty of Gray – Live
You Are Loved – Josh Groban
The Distance – Live
Sing – Dresden Dolls
Knights of Cydonia – Muse
Sing for Absolution – Muse
Slow Bleed – Thousand Foot Krutch
Art of Breaking – Thousand Food Krutch

I could keep going, I really could…


5 Carolyn June 30, 2009 at 10:17 pm

Bravo Urchin. I went to iTunes to check out any songs I didn’t know. We do have similar tastes! What a beautiful rendition of Que Sera Sera that is. I hadn’t heard it before. Thank you!


6 Urchin June 30, 2009 at 10:19 pm

Ooh ooh! I want to guess which ones you had to look up!

E Nomine, My Chem. Romance, and Thousand Foot Krutch?


7 Carolyn June 30, 2009 at 10:31 pm

So close! The only one you missed was the Barenaked Ladies. I swore them off years ago after breaking up with a die hard fan of theirs, so I’m not familiar with any of their remotely current work. I liked that one though!


8 Urchin June 30, 2009 at 10:45 pm

Augh! -flails about-

I can see why you’d swear them off if you broke up with an uber fan of theirs, but that song isn’t really all that new (by my standards). Who Needs Sleep? is on the Stunt album produced and distributed in 1998.


9 Carolyn July 1, 2009 at 10:21 am

hmm. I avoided everything after Gordon. But I should really let the grudge go. It’s probably been long enough. :)

10 Urchin July 1, 2009 at 12:15 pm

Heehee. Give’em another shot! The’re only Canucks ;)


11 Frank July 1, 2009 at 3:44 pm

Hahahaha. Um… Urchin? You’re aware that Carolyn is Canadian, right?


12 Urchin July 1, 2009 at 4:27 pm


I knew you’d moved there with her, didn’t know she’d stayed!

Happy Canada Day!


13 Maryann July 2, 2009 at 4:05 pm

Mine are all over the place.

Glitter in the Air – Pink
Ave Mary A – Pink
Crash into me – Dave Mathews Band
Funny the way it is – Dave Mathews Band (New Favorite)
Fix You – Coldplay
Breath – Breaking Benjamin
Natural Life – Breaking Benjamin
Don’t Stop Believin’ – Journey
Damn Regret – The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Your Guardian Angel – The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Take a Chance – MAtt White Band
You Raise Me Up – Josh Groban
Lullaby – Josh Groban

The hardest part is narrowing it down to just a handful!


14 Urchin July 2, 2009 at 4:15 pm

That’s an awesome list, Maryann! I’m right there with you on the narrowing it down difficulty. There are so many songs out there that mean something to me, that DO something for me.

For a while there was one song I just would.not.stop. listening to. I’ve stopped now.

Holding Out for a Hero was great. I was, but not in the same way Bonnie was when she performed the piece. I had to find out that I was my own hero.

Again I say, awesome, awesome list you have there.


15 Carolyn July 2, 2009 at 5:46 pm

I love it! Again I had to look up a few. I love Dave Matthew’s new stuff too.


16 Urchin July 11, 2009 at 6:37 pm

New anthem song!

Assemblage 23′s Damaged.


17 Carolyn July 12, 2009 at 7:26 am

Oooh! I like it! Reminds me a bit of a Depeche Mode song.


18 La Bell Mere September 29, 2009 at 8:23 pm

Ooooh, I’m gonna have to have a think about this one…. I’ve just tried thinking for the last couple of minutes but I’ve just got Muse songs in my head now!!!

I do love Muse though!!! Big fan.

LBM xxxx


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